Hello friends! I hope you had a wonderful holiday and a happy New Year!.
During this healing journey, I’m learning how to forgive myself. Now this is a tough topic for me, to be honest. I never thought I needed forgiveness. But I see that I was wrong. That I do need to forgive myself. Forgiving myself for disappointing myself, not being honest with myself, being with men that were low standard, not taking chances, having fear, being scared of change, managing money, friendship, not loving myself, not opening up my heart, etc… I can go on and on. But I see that I deserve the forgiveness to heal.
That the choose I made, was from a broken place. A place of not seeing how important I was, to see how deep my emotional baggage was. I had to understand how much I was hurting myself. And that’s a tough pill to swallow. But I swallowed that pill. I saw how much I needed to heal my heart, heal my mind, and my soul. I’m taking this forgiveness slowly everyday. I understand, I will not forgive myself in a snap, and I’m actually glad about it. It makes more aware of how deep I have to heal, and how my choices were made. That because I was in the space, I was in, I made the best choices I could at that time. Once I understood that, It made sense to me. It made sense that I was living in the space I knew for so long, but didn’t know how to change. Until one day I woke up and didn’t was to be in same space, singing the same song, and doing the same dance, excepting a different result…( pleading insanity.. lol) So here’s to anyone who needs to know that, yes you deserve to forgive yourself. That it’s ok to forgive yourself and that you are loveable and important.
Thank you for reading. I hope you have a wonderful week and New Year! Forgiveness of Self 2020! Until next time friends. xoxoxo